2021/10/15

メリーバッドエンド - 遺書

 Merry Badend - Isho / Suicide Note



だれか僕を殺してほしい

Dareka boku wo koroshite hoshii


I wish somebody would kill me 


[口先]の愛など消えてしまえ

[Kuchisaki] no ai nado kieteshimae


Love made of mere words and all would vanish away 


[所詮]人は[愚かな獣]

[Shousen] hito wa [orokana kemono]


After all humans are stupid beasts 


心[など]いらない、こわれてしまえ

Kokoro [nado] iranai, kowareteshimae


Don't need things like heart, break away


だれかのやさしいさが。。。。

Dareka no yasashii ga....


Someone's kindness 


いつも僕の心に雨をふらせる

Itsumo boku no kokoro ni ame wo furaseru


Always makes it rain in my heart 


すめたい雨。。。。

Tsumetai ame....


Cold rain 


殺して、殺してくれ、

Koroshite, koroshitekure,


Kill me, kill me, 


殺してくれ生まれかわることも

Koroshitekure umarekawaru koto mo


Kill the chance¹ to be reborn as well 


[ない]ほど殺してくれ、殺してくれ

[Nai]hodo koroshitekure, koroshitekure


Kill me to the degree of nothingness


僕のこのいたみを止めてほしい。

Boku no kono itami wo tomete hoshii.


I want this pain of mine to stop. 



きっと僕はきたいしている

Kitto boku wa kitaishiteiru


Surely I am expecting


同情を、理解を、特別死を

Doujou wo, rikai wo, tokubetsu shi wo


Sympathy, reason, a special death


楽しそうに笑う誰かだと 僕が[いる世界は同じはずでも]

Tanoshisou ni warau dareka to Boku ga iru sekai wa onaji hazu demo


The world that I live in is ought to be the same as someone who can laugh heartily, yet 


うまく笑えなくて、

Umaku waraenakute,


I cannot laugh² well 


何をまちがえたのか。

Nani wo machigaeta no ka.


I wonder what went wrong? 


僕の[部品は、足りてるかなあ]

Boku no [buhin wa, tariteru kana]


Are my components lacking I fear³


壊れて、壊れてくれ、

Kowarete, kowaretekure,


Break, break away 


壊れてくれ何一つきぼうも

Kowaretekure nani hitotsu kibou mo


Break away all the hope that there is


ないほどこ壊れてくれ

Naihodo kowaretekure


Break me to the degree of nothingness


壊れてくれこのいたみをすべて忘れるほど

Kowaretekure kono itami wo subete wasureru hodo


Break away this pain to the point of forgetting everything


必要のないそんざいだとしても

Hitsuyou no nai sonzai dato shitemo


Even though I am an undesirable existence 


なぜ[だろう]僕は生きていたい

Naze[darou] boku wa ikiteitai


I wonder why do I want to go on living?


僕を[肯定して]よ

Boku wo [koutei shite] yo


Please affirm me 


愛して、愛してくれ、愛してくれ

Aishite, aishitekure, aishitekure


Love me, please love me, love me


だれかそばにいてよ

Dareka soba ni iteyo


Somebody please stay by my side


そのままころしてくれ、ころしてくれ

Sono mama koroshitekure, koroshitekure


Kill me as I am, kill me 


君にこのいたみをうつる前に

Kimi ni kono itami wo utsuru mae ni


Before this pain infects you


死にたくなどないよ

Shinitaku nado naiyo


I don't want to die or anything


だけど消えたい夢のようになくなれば

Dakedo kietai yume no you ni nakunareba


But I want to vanish like a dream if I can perish


救われる気がする

Sukuwareru ki ga suru


I feel like I will get redemption⁴ 


悲しまないで、さようなら、さようなら、さようなら。。。。

Kanashimanaide, sayounara, sayounara, sayounara....


Do not grieve, good-bye, good-bye, good-bye....


いとしい人。

Itoshii hito.


My dear.





NOTES:-


¹ have inserted this to bring out the essence of the line it's not written literally in original lyrics 


² not literal laughing but it's about not able to enjoy life happily and as well as others 


³ again semantic translation of the line, it's not literally fear, but the implication is that he fears that he's perhaps lacking something essential as others 


⁴ this line simply means: I feel like I can be saved but given the concept of the band I've used “redemption" 


the concept of the band was Gods and humans and trying to get redemption for their sins or grieving one's existence though later it changed slightly.



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